If you read my update over in “Facing Rejections“, you’ll know that this has been an off year for me, writing wise.
While it was productive, I was thrown for a little bit of a loop, and I had to figure out a way to get back to the desk and pump out more work.
Now, I never put a lot of stock into Wattpad. Don’t get me wrong, I love the idea of a platform where writers can share their work, find readers, and get feedback, but for some reason Wattpad never clicked with me. I opened an account back in 2017, but immediately abandoned it, because I just didn’t “get” it.
And honestly? I was worried about what my writer friends would think of me if I posted. I’ve only have four short stories published, and I’m going to just start throwing my work around for free? Don’t I want to be a “real writer”?
But when it comes down to it, there’s something I’ve had to come to terms with that outweighed my fear of looking bad in the eyes of my peers.
I write because I want to people to read my work and connect with something in it.
I’m not the best when it comes to relating to others, but when I’m writing all I want to do is connect. It’s why I was so passionate when I was in a writer’s group, or sharing my writing with friends. The more people talking about, commenting on, or even ripping apart my novel with criticism, the more inspired I am to write because I’m able to feel like I’m making connections with other human beings.
Call it overly romantic, but I don’t write because it fulfills some deep need in my heart to create art or because “I couldn’t imagine doing anything else”. I write with the hope that for a brief moment people read my work and connect with what I’m putting on the page.
Sharing my work has given me a new found love for my second novel and I’ve fallen back into my old writing habits of actually producing content on a regular basis.
I can’t lie though. I’m still a little scared about admitting this about myself.
There are two writers in particular that I’m still worried will judge me and think that I’ve given up just because I’m posting my work up online now. Writers I greatly admire and respect, but I know will probably scoff at me if not to my face then definitely behind closed doors. And yeah, this is something I need to over come too.
When it comes down to it, however, I feel like this is a good next step for me, and I’ve been working harder than I have in a while. At the end of the day, this is what made me fall back in love with writing, and I hope y’all enjoy the new direction this is taking my work in.
And because I don’t say it enough, thank you for reading.
I hope that through even these blog posts you find something to relate to and it makes you feel less alone today.
They definitely help me.